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Well actually lately life hasnt been too bad. School is just annoying and Im ready for new classes and I need to go to my psych class. I havent gone in 2 weeks but I get A's on all his tests so I guess it doesnt really matter if I go or not. Tomorrow I have business I kinda have to go cause 1) my dad got a new job so now hes going to be working from home 2) I have a test wednesday. Thursday I leave for up north and come home sunday sometime. Today I got up and Mike came over and we took Steph to the pet expo. We ended up adopoting two REALLY cute kittens!!!!! Then after that he went with the whole family out to my grandparents house and then to dinner for my grandmas 70th birthday. After we came home we went shopping for all the things they need and some toys. He just left to take them home to get them adjusted. They are brother and sister named Sasha and Peanut. They are grey and white and soooooo cute! I have to go finish one of the three english papers that Im working on right now so I can turn them in hopefully by tuesday. I also need sleep tonight cause of class and work tomorrow at one.
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[08 Sep 2005|06:49pm] |
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I have so much homework to do its not even funny but I figure that I have a week to do it cause im not going to classes on monday or tuesday. I saw chris laskey, christina f...the italian one I used to work with and security bryan at school today. It was the most weird to see bryan there. I just got back from picking up my brother from the airport. Im so excited hes here! Tomorrow I get to sleep in. No Class!!!!! Saturday in my neighborhood block party should be a ton of fun.
SUNDAY-- IM GOING TO THE LIONS AND PACKERS GAME!!!!!! IM SO EXCITED!!!!!! I even bought a jersey.
Monday is the surgery so yeah that will be a fun day.
So thats me as of late.
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I just found out today that my grandpa has colon cancer and is going into surgery on monday. That was the nice start to my day. It is also a nice thing to add to my worry list.
Not doing much around here, just the usual...working, babysitting, family stuff, worrying...
Good luck to everyone who is leaving/left for school.
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| wow its been a while! |
[28 Jul 2005|05:48pm] |
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Its been almost a year since I last updated. Lots have happened, but I wont get into most of that. For the last few months all i have been doing is working cause Im planning on taking off quite a bit of time here pretty soon and Im also paying for a plane ticket for my brother so he can come out here again.
I'll just come out and say it. Life sucks right now. Theres a lot going on and Im scared of handling it wrong. Today my whole family went out to U of M hospital. For those of you who dont know my sister has a heart defect that has been there for a while, but nothing was really ever serious...until now. We went out there today and she first had a echo-cardiogram which was really interesting to me cause it lasted on hour and a half and it was all different views of her heart and they even have a new way of looking at it in 3d. After the echo we had to go talk to the doctor. He is actually th surgeon that will be performing open heart surgery on my little sister in the second week of september. With all of this going on the stress level in my house is crazy so I try to escape, but I know I cant do that cause this is the time that my family needs me around the most. I havent told my parents that Im flying my brother out yet for this I figured it would be a nice surprise for my mom, but also company for me since we're going to be at the hospital 24-7 it gives me somewhere and someone who understands to go to. So thats the latest thing that is going on that we are struggling to deal with. It was kinda funny though today we were sitting there during the echo and you can tell that steph is scared, but shes been thorugh many echos before. Shes the one that always tries to be strong too. My mom was sitting there crying and the doctor tells steph to roll over and face us so he can get a different view and she looks and my mom and starts crossing her eyes and making faces whaich made all of us just crack up. That girl is so strong and she really knows how to lighten a mood. God I love her. Her biggest fear with going inot surgery is missing school. She doesnt want to miss anything and thats the main thing that got her upset was when the doctor told her that she would be out of school for a month. You would think that most kids would be happy to miss school, but not my sister!
Other than that not too many things to worry about. Im getting really excited to start college, which is weird since before all I was doing was trying to get out of school! I love my schedule though so that probably helps.
Well im going to get back to cleaning! Im trying to help out around the house a little more. The cell is always on if you want to call hopefully I will start updating more again. Hope everyone else is doing well. Always keep smiling!!
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| NEW PHONE!!!!! |
[03 Oct 2004|04:35pm] |
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i finally got my new cell phone!!!
My # is (248)345-8705 call me anytime especially if you are with cingular or anytime after 7.
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SAN DEIGO HERE I COME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Im excited can you tell??
Today was okay. Had more fun with grace after the registration...BK anyone??
My classes are as follows:
1st Semester--
psychology-Kalczynski
Algebra II-Carley
Creative Writing-Ziegler
Singers-Donnie
2nd Semester--(subjuect to change...switching 2nd block)
Contemp. relationships-Schuck
Modern Amer. Lit.-Kidle
Short Story-Bertolini
Singers-Donnie.
So there you have it kids. Im off for a week. I'll see everyone soon enough!
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I got through today!!!!! All i have to say is i love my managers and dee. They were a huge help today an so were many other people (you know who you are). Yes i was disappointed but in the end im happy i went through wiht it now we'll see what happens from here.
People are very intersting and entertaining. Tonight just proved that even more.
Now i gotta go.
MONDAY NIGHT FOOTBALL!!!!!!!!! GO PACKERS!!!!!
(even though they'll loose aganist the seahawks they're a good team)
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| the thought behind the day i want to hide |
[13 Aug 2004|07:12pm] |
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It just hit me. Im scared, im nervous and i dont know what to do. I want to be strong, but im so confused its making me weaker. Every side used to be equal and now every second it seems as if one side is always heavier. I cant wait for it to pass. I cant wait for it to all be done. All done. Just for once.
I dont know why i do this to myself every year, but i do. I always go back to the saying: Treat others the way you want to be treated. I feel that i needs to start with me. I look back though and it seems that its always started with me and yet i never win. I wan to win just once, but what do io do?? What im doing right now doesnt help anything. I want to do so much, but i feel that the oppertunities havent been right. Or am i looking for too perfect of an oppertunity that will actually never come and this right now is my "real" oppertunity. My mind is so filled with so many different thoughts of how much i hate you, but really i dont think i could ever HATE you, its just not possible. I dont know how to escape these thoughts. No matter how far i get away for a moment i always end up where i started...lost and not knowing which direction to go. Im looking at this as one of my biggest fears. I need to overcome my fears, but i dont know if i should start with this one. Will i ever know?
I think in my heart i know what i need to do, but the problem is working up the courage to go through wiht it. I worry too much about everything. I think that its time to stop worring and to do something. I have to do something ive made up my mind. I need to be happy just for once. i need to stop looking back and asking me if i made the biggest mistake of my life and what life would be like if i changed my mind or said something different just once. I need to do this for me. I cant back out this time. Well we'll see what happens after monday. The day i never what to see, but i have to so i can get through this.
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lets see...all ive really been doing lately is trying to keep up with life. Ive been working way too much and there is always sometype of family something going on it seems like.
Just 2 weeks ago my family found out that my moms best friends parents died in a car accident while they were on vacation. My mom friends dad and mom basically raised her cause her parents where never around. And the father was also my mom high school counselor.
Today my grandma called adn told us that my mom's cousin who has had cancer for a while is really taking a turn for the worst and is only giving him a month to live because he is having liver failure. So our trip out to california may be moved up depending on what happens. The worst part of that though is that he is only 40 and has an 11 and 9 year old and just re-married 3 years ago and the girls would have to go back to their real mother who was a drug addict and has 8 kids by 5 diferent men.
Trough everyhting lately i can tell you that i just feel like im gonna break im tired of being the strong one in the family that has to hold everyone else together when they break down especially when my dad is gone. They just dont seem to understand that i have enough on my own shoulders as it is then i have to try and help and solve all my familys problems and worries too. Im not sure how much longer that i can really do this. Something has to change somewhere and soon.
Please everyone keep my family in your prayers cause this is getting to be a very hard time.
Well thats all really give me a call if you wanna do something or just wanna talk if im not around im probably at work and i will cll you back!!
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| RAIN!!!! |
[12 Jul 2004|10:43am] |
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I love the rain in fact im gonna go play outside in it right now i'll update later. maybe.
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not much to say or really just things i dont want to say here cause it'll probably cause drama even though it shouldnt in my mind but i'll just keep it there. I've been thinking too much and thinking about how much i've screwed so many things up especially after the first of this year.
Well im around tomorrow and i work tues,wed,and fri, and babysit on thurs. If ypu wanna do something i can on wed. before work or after work any night even tomorrow i can i think. So give me a call if you want.
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the changes in life dont make you who you are, its how you deal with them that make you who you are now.
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[08 Jul 2004|08:51pm] |
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Relaxation is the key to everything!
Wednesday i went and got carryout chinese and the fortune i recived was...Someone from your past has returned to steal your heart. kinda weird. Still thinking. Babysitting is not an option!!!!! Dont even say it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yesterday i went to babysit i was there for 4 1/2 hours and made $50. :D
After that i went to my aunt and uncles house and sat in the hot tub forever and watched more fireworks explode.
Today went to the mall with lindso and saw sarah and eric for a few. Then i came home and got out one of our huge pillows and my fleece blanket and watched remember the titans. Then went to graces and helped make car was signs and went and bought a lemon meringue pie cause i needed something sweet.
Well thats it for now. working tomorrow. Time to go watch another movie probably top gun! :D
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[04 Jul 2004|09:09pm] |
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Well these last two days have been better than i expected i spent both days only with family.
Yesterday- went on our canoe trip. i have to say the best part was when we flipped my parents canoe and the water gun and water balloon fights. The most dangerous thing was they put the 2 blondes in a canoe together-lets just say we met a lot of trees. lol This was only supposed to be a 2-3 hour trip that turned into 6 hours and me looking like a lobster or a shrimp however you wanna look at it im burnt!
today-went to church and after we went to great lakes crossings shopped for a few hours and then we got the WHOLE family together and went to dave and busters and spent an additional 4 hours there.
Tomorrow- Going to my aunt and uncles at 1 to go swimming and bbq...more family fun!
Hope everyone is haveing a good 4th. I have the whole week off work and my aunt leaves on tuesday morning to go to other family so im free i think so gimmie a call if you wanna do something.
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| life is back to normal |
[27 Jun 2004|07:00pm] |
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Well everything is over and things are back to so called normal. My parents keep yelling at me for things that i cant control, i try to escape, but there is nothing better to escape to.
Now my parents want to move again. It pisses me off that everytime that things become okay and a place finally feels like home they decide that they want to up and move. Many of you have no idea how it feels because you have lived in the same house or city for almost your whole life. Well with me i have moved 8 times now and this is the longest we have stayed in one place well will see how long the longest ends up being.
This past week was one of the best times that i have had in who knows how long. Now its over. Now its all apart of the past like everything else.
Well theres not much else to say. Gotta go finish laundry now.
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Okay heres whats goin on.
Sheenas here
Talked a lot
Lots of shopping
BBQ fun
Paycheck
Thats about it for now but its only thursday
One last thing
Dont call my cell phone long story parential units are being ass holes.
I'll really update sunday night or monday.
Hope everyone is haveing a good week.
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| im sick and tired of it all |
[19 Jun 2004|12:21pm] |
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my family is so messed up i dont know where to start. I wonder if i made the wrong choice of moving out here with my mom. My mom and dad were always fighting and i figured that almost 2000 miles apart would be enough to stop it all. I was wrong. My dad (stepdad) wen tand got the mail today and there are a bunch of court papers in the mail for my mom, but he doesnt want here to open them becuase he knew that she would get upset. (This has been going on for years. The other parent is always the bad parent) Well at about the beginning of the year my dad was about $5000 behind in child support and my mom wanted him to pay some of it. So they went through a bunch of lawyers and had it said that if he didnt start slowly paying some of it then some of his material items will be taken away. (one of the 8 cars, motorcycles, one of the boats...) It worked for a while and then he started slacking again. I found out today that my dad is trying to make my mom fly out there and attend a court hearing because with all of this they have gotten to the piont that his license was taken away and the next step would be for him to go to jail. Somehow i get stuck in the middle of this whole thing and everything that goes wrong is my fault and im supposed to fix it. Yeah right i havent even talked to my dad in a year and a half so that wont work. So it seems that im in trouble again for something that i cant control and i dont even give a fuck if he pays or not. God i just want it all to stop! I just dont know what to do or say to anyone any more cause its always oh well megan will just feed you a bunch of bull shit and its much easier to blame the child for he existance rather than taking control and dealing with the main problems. And they wonder why im not happy anymore. I just cant believe how much fuckin nerve they have to continue all this shit!
Well i might go to some grad parties if i feel like it today other than that im just gonna sit around and eat ice cream. Call me if you need me or if you just want to.
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Would anyone want to go out to Kensington next week sometime??? The weather is supposed to be good so its just an idea if you would like to be apart please comment or call me. (it would probably be thursday)
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yeasterday i got stuck at home watching my sister all day. Went over to graces at 4 and then i had to leave by 530 to go babysit. I was going to go back but my mom wouldnt let me cause she wasnt awake and it was 1245 when i got home. Oh well i made money. Shes paying me today and its like 90 bucks and easy work (the kids went to bed at 8).
Today nothing is planned but sitting here and doing nothing i dont have to watch my sister today cause mom is off work so will SOMEONE PLEASE CALL ME AND GET ME OUT OF HERE!!!!!
home:(248)347-7783 Cell:(248)921-8846
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| hello hello hello |
[13 Jun 2004|09:18pm] |
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yesterday had acts in the morin and then grad parties but didnt go to most.
Today went to churcha dn then to the mall where we spent 3 hours. I bought 3 shirts and a pair of pants and my sis got her ears pierced. Fun Stuff.
Came home and went shoppin with christina for steves grad present and then went and got karen. It was a good time.
Now the game is on im kinda watchin it with one eye.
Well thats it for now. Call me tomorrow during the day before 330 if you wanna do somethin. If im not home call the cell 248-921-8846
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